Friday, 31 October 2014

Bad Mother

First of all, Happy birthday Letter Trails. You've been my baby for two years now!

I've been sitting in front of my laptop for almost an hour now, trying to figure out how to start a new post. I've drafted something a few weeks ago but I feel like I have to redo everything, including the review I wrote.

Today is Letter Trails's 2nd birthday and feel like a bad mother. It's been a while since I last posted here. It's actually been a while since I blog-hopped and commented on my favorite blogs. It felt like I've been away, not just from my blog, but also from the whole blogosphere.

If I am asked why this happened, I would automatically answer that it's because of my school, my previous job and my general busy schedule. But it's not just that. It's also because, for some reason, I've lost interest.

I felt like the whole thing was just a routine. My reviews sounded the same, following the format that I unconsciously made in my head. And I can't think of any cool weekly post that others haven't done yet- and it was frustrating me to no end. Yes, I am (or I've been) that insecure blogger who wanted to be like others who generate more reads and comments. Seeing that some of my posts have zero reads was a blow to me and what's worse is that I can't think of anything that would make it better. So I said screw it. It's my blog and I'm gonna do whatever I want.. which is not posting. Although another legit reason was that I didn't have any time to read lately. I am wayyyy behind in my GR challenge and it's the first time that I've only read a few books for a year.

But now I'm posting this for a reason. I promised myself to come back and now I think that this is the right time. Unlike before, I will follow a schedule of posting. I would also try to make things more me and not write generic reviews that are boring to read. I will also avoid blog tours as much as I can. For the review requests, I honestly don't know.. Yes, I guess? That is if authors/publishers would still want me to write something about their material. I'm quite sure that I've lost a number of readers, no matter how few they were before. So basically, this is just like having a new blog.. A rebirth.

I hope I'd be an efficient blogger by the time this blog turns three. I promise to try. :)